There are times when
you realize you are an option and not a priority, and if you don’t realize it,
you are haunted by the thought.
When you get together
with a certain someone, you feel like the third wheel or the last one invited
to the party. You are the plus one. Maybe you suspect you are some last minute
arrangement. Sometimes you may feel like
you are being edged out by some invisible force, like a new, more interesting
version of you with more time or more money or fewer problems.
I’ve been there, too,
too many times. I have been the
understanding Guy, the accommodating friend, the forgiving brother and the
easy-going friend. I would make excuses
like, “Well, they are just a) busy b) stressed c) going through a rough time or
d) in a weird place right now.” And
sometimes these things could have been true.
I would tell myself I needed to be less self-centered, egocentric or needy,
which sounded healthy. I’d go over what
I didn’t do right. I’d try to be THE
better person and give them a pass. I’d
try to be a better person more worthy of their attentions and affections.
But after exhausting
myself, I had to come to terms: I had
allowed myself to become “the option person” in life. And although we can’t make people make us a
priority, we do have the power to enable ourselves to become a “priority
person” in life. And here is how it can
be done by you and me.
1.
Make yourself and your needs a priority
I know it might sound
counter-intuitive to you, but the truth is people like you because you make
them the priority and they don’t have to make you a priority. By indulging yourself, doing what you want,
when you want, how you want, even if you are alone while doing it, you are
really carving out your own dominion.
The people who want to
make you a priority will come to your kingdom or they can play elsewhere.
If you are a very
giving person, you will have a hard time with this. If necessary, get a pet or a garden going
that needs you to make them a priority.
You will fulfill your need to be giving in a healthy way that doesn’t
set up these relationships where you are second best.
But truly, you need to
start living for yourself, not for another person.
2.
Recognize the users in your life, even if they are family
It is difficult to
identify and then distance yourself from the users in your life, especially if
it is family members who have been the ones who have taught you since birth
through their actions that you and your wants aren’t very important. It could be that they have their own
emotional baggage, and you can be compassionate about it, but if they are repeatedly
enforcing the message that you are not good enough or that your needs shouldn’t
come first, then you have to take a step back from them when the time is right
for you.
Someone taught you to
be the “option person,” and you have to get real about who that person or those
people are. It will be life altering
when you take the blinders off. Promise.
3.
List the value of you
It may sound dopey, but
for all the time you might spend criticizing and putting yourself down, you at
the least need to make a mental lists of your valuable assets. You have them. You have your funny side, your compassionate
side, your loving side, your nurturing side, your smart side, your hard-working
side, and so many other sides. List
them. Pin them up on a mirror. Every day we spend time looking in mirrors to
check out our face, teeth, and clothes.
Have some internal, introspective, beneath-the-surface qualities that
demonstrate you are worthy. Chances are
you’ve forgotten some.
After internalizing
your list, you’ll notice better when others don’t appreciate you, and you’ll
know sooner to stop wasting emotional energy on them or to re-prioritize them
as an option person, too.
4.
Invest yourself in a worthy cause
I don’t think we think
about volunteering and charity as a self-help tool, but it can be. If you are a giving person, give to a cause
that will benefit from your good works.
Don’t dump your energy into people who are not valuing you. It does no good. But do give yourself to helping others and
causes you care about, you will be doing something of value.
And just think of it,
you just added another reason you are a valuable, worthy person. Viola!
5.
Don’t turn back!
It is difficult for me
not to look back on the good times with people and not think better times will
come around, but realistically, you shouldn’t turn back. Once you have realized you are the option,
not the priority, a priority person will not look back or go back to being the
option person. It will hurt. I haven’t had the experience where someone
wanted to know what went wrong and try to work on things. I’ve either gotten
silence or a caustic list of how I am the cause of all wrong. So unless you want to be the doormat or
someone’s whipping dog or slip back into being just an option, you have to move
forward.
Hope is a really great
thing unless it is distorting your reality and derailing your future.
6.
Believe that better people and better things are just ahead!
Reading over other
online posts, the number one reason people get stuck being an option and are
unable to make themselves a priority is because they don’t believe there is
someone or something better just ahead.
Maybe few people want to admit it, but it seems a lot of drama is coming
out of the idea that they are “meant to be” with a certain someone: Giving up on that person is giving up on
love. Giving up means breaking our word. We promised. We committed. We must
remain faithful and true to the end. We must go down with the ship!
But the thing is, once
the other person has given up on love, stopped trying, started investing
themselves elsewhere, the love stopped existing. Once the friendship was left behind, it
withered and died. Relationships, like
plants, need things to live and more care to thrive. Hanging on to someone or something because of
a story you told yourself a few years ago is going to take away the best things
in your life: your possibilities and
your future.
As cliche as it is, it
is true: every ending is something else’s
beginning. And if you have worked on
yourself and your priorities, the right people and opportunities will show
themselves.
7.
Stay fluid and continue to make new friends
One of the reasons high
school can be terrible or some job can be awful is because we get stuck with
the same people and the same routines.
Nothing new or interesting happens unless someone new comes into the
group. But instead of waiting for someone new to come to you, like “option
people” do, you need to go out and meet new people, make new friends and
contacts, and expand your horizons. As
an “option person” you probably fenced yourself in. You maybe even lost touch with other people
because you were trying to stay available for that other person or because you
allowed yourself to get sucked into all their plans having none of your own.
Even the worst dating
article I read had a truth in it; no one will make you a priority until you
make them show you are a priority.
And if you are hanging
around hoping that certain someone will finally give you the metaphoric red
roses you deserve, you have turned your back on the person who is already ready
to do so. So drop off that other
person’s radar. If they come around,
great. If they don’t, which is more
likely, even better. Because to tell you
the truth, it seems me many want second chances because they can get third,
fourth, and fifth ones too. How tiresome
are they? Let them learn the hard way. Don’t continue to be their soft landing spot
in life.
8.
Be direct with what you want from the relationship
This may send you into
panic mode, and if it does, I’m sorry.
But really, if you don’t like being an option and you don’t like being
taken for granted and if you want more, you have to have “the talk.” I know this is the best thing and should be
probably number one. It probably makes
all the other stuff I’ve said non-issues.
And I know for a lot of people it will be like scheduling a root canal
and then showing up to find out they are out of laughing gas. But in some ways, it isn’t much more effort
than number one, making yourself and your needs a priority. But you have to actually communicate them to
the someone significant in your life, or the someone you wish to become
significant in your life.
You may even need your
list of value in hand, to remind yourself you are worth it.
9.
Be okay with being on your own without turning into a hermit or emotionally
shallow
You may be hanging on
and becoming comfortable with being an option person largely because you are
more afraid of being alone and feeling lonely. Or you are more comfortable with
the lack of intimacy in your relationship.
Or you’re afraid of intimacy. Sometimes distant relationships or
relationships that come and go easily aren’t because they are these great, epic
friendships where people are so perfectly comfortable with each other they can
pick up where they started. Sometimes
they work because the people in these relationships lack emotional depth or are
avoiding long-term intimacy that requires accountability. You want to keep your depth, your ability to
connect emotionally with someone, and to be able to be held equally accountable
in a long-term relationship. So while
you need to be able to weather life on your own, you don’t want to become so
comfortable that you lose you ability to have a meaningful relationship
Meaningful relations
are all about being a priority.
So while you need to be
able to weather life on your own so you won’t settle or hang-on to the wrong
people, you don’t want to become so comfortable that you lose you ability to
have a meaningful relationship.
10.
Allow yourself to be a little high-maintenance
I mention this one
lastly because I believe many of you option people have tried so hard in life
to be the accommodating one or to please someone or not to be upsetting or to
be demanding in any way. I’ve had people
try to make it out like I was being high maintenance as a strategic move to get
me to be the jellyfish friend or the sad-sap girlfriend they needed. I’ve made friendships and relationships all
about the other person, and sometimes I thought I was doing the right thing at
the time.
Most people need to
work on number nine and quit trying to use people as their crutches, their door
mats, or their whipping dogs. People
don’t need other people as much as they need to quit using each other and get
right with themselves. So sometimes, do
yourself the favor, be high-maintenance, make some demands, and be able to let
them and yourself walk alone.
There are times when we
won’t and can’t be a priority to someone else we deeply care about, legitimate
reasons like they have a very young child or an aged parent who is very
ill. There are times when we have to be
understanding about the demands of an occupation like if the person works
shifts or has to work with people in different time zones. We have to know their passions and how this
will impact the relationship. It the
legitimate reasons are for real and are not just subterfuge or out-and-out
lies, you could be doing the right thing by staying open, accommodating, and
flexible.
But if the other person
is communicating to you that your are not worth being a priority, then feel
free to walk on.
And of course, you may
just need more than the other person can give.
So believe you will
find yourself a worthy partner who will want to walk beside you not one who
would have you chasing their shadow.
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